Sitting with it

So much has been happening externally and internally. I wonder if its the energies influencing the environment- and I without realizing got swept in, and its too late. In the chaos.

Brought up some old stuff again. And made me really realize that there is still very much a lot of processing to do. There's still very tender parts that I need to work through. I should of recognize it, instead gave in to it.

Went to the mountains and it was alot of purging happening, and then immediately threw myself into the river. It where I need to sit, a moment of breath, to clear and root. Communication is key, and the words we choose really matters.

I still have work to. I realize that more and more, there's always growth. Sometimes it sucks that growth happen due to challenges or coflicts with others.

I learn to grow as a parent with hard moments with my kids. Navigating complex, sometimes painful dynamics with friends, family both of the past and present.

Yup, still got work to do.

Instead “working through” it, I’ve been sitting in it more, sitting in the uncomfortable - getting to know more and understand. Then I can work with it but first sometimes it require you to sit with it.

Let me go do some bows in the shrine.

Lately I've been feeling pulled to do1000 bows, and then I will definitely sit with it because my legs will be jelly. prepare this full moon.